The Meeting

Catherine placed the receiver back with a fervent smile on her face and leaned back onto her chair.
It has been long since she had seen him. Hours of talks on the phone was nothing compared to the smile on his face when he sees her. She recollected each word Kevin had said.
“…it has been a while, honey... I desperately wanted to see your face ... n I wanted it to be a surprise.”
She had no words to reply.
“Well meet you at the old park. What do you say?” he asked “When will you be free?”
“In an hour… oh... may be half an hour…” she smiled
“Good. I’ll be there… love ya... bye”
Wiping away tears from her eyes, she got up. The usually boring day had suddenly found the dewdrops it was waiting for.
No time to waste. She sank in to complete the report she had to submit the next day.
A while later, a nurse walked into her room and seeing her packing, asked.
“Leaving early Dr. Catherine?”
“Yeah... big plans, Susan” she said trying the least to hide her happiness.
“Hmm... I can see that in your face” Susan said”... too bad you were asked to report to the emergency room... a minor accident case”
“What? No... I’ve gotto go... its really important. Can’t Lizzie cover up for me? Ask her, please. I have to go. Besides it’s my shift is over too.”
She always considered her job as sacred, but it has taken all happiness from her life… kept her away from Kevin. She was not ready to let it happen this time too. She too wanted to have some contentment in her life. She quickly took her stuff and headed out.
As her car headed out of her the hospital, a crowd beside the junction caught her attention. Accidents have become a regular occurrence here. Why aren’t the authorities doing anything for it? She asked herself. But it was while taking the turn that she saw the wrecked car. Her heart sank as the world around her contracted onto her filling her teary eyes with darkness.

Trying hard to keep herself up, she got out of her car and ran back. She ran back to the hospital praying with all her heart to not let it be true.

Pushing open the emergency door, she saw the white sheet been put over the beautiful face she had so longed to see.

Bring back the warmth…

I'm not sure if my introduction into the world of science was a blessing or a curse. It has definitely changed my outlook toward everything around me and I learned to think on my own. An academically average student became a curious observer and the thirst to know more only increased as I filled myself with what appeared to be the truth. But I had a larger prize to pay for that.

The truth I sought left a small hole in my pot labeled faith and my faith in god started to leak out leaving a dark trail behind me. Before I knew it, I had an empty pot with nothing to put my faith in. I never knew being realistic could rob you off your optimism.

Now I can never leave anything to chance for I knew that no one was there to guide me in my darkest hours or bring me luck when I needed it most. I felt betrayed and lonely in the world ruled not by love, sympathy or benevolence but by forces of attraction or repulsion and other forces that I now don't care to remember.

I know I'm believing in the truth, but when I see others around me crying, sobbing and talking at the house of god as though to a person sitting beside you, who nods at your every word with compassion, sympathy and understanding, I feel that I'm losing something, something worth treasuring, something that makes me feel that my tears are not in vain.

The feeling of having someone beside, you no matter wherever you are and at all times, to show a shoulder for you to cry on and empty your sorrow, to give you comfort and strength.

To have an invisible yet loyal friend, lover, guide all the time.

Now I truly understand what god is…

It's a part of yourself that comes forward at times of loneliness and sorrow to share your grief and give you a warm hug.It cannot change water to wine or cure the blind or get to rich in a fortnight or win battles for you or comes in all fury to exterminate the evil. But it does have the magical power to make you feel yourself.

My Work - Coffee Time

This is the pic of a girl i saw in a regional newspaper n decided to draw it...
The girl in the original picture was really beautiful.. i just couldn't take my eyes off her even while drawing ;) , but this one is not :(





Another close up of the above picture



Click here to see my previous works :)

Tagged!!!

Deepika had tagged me a long time ago… n my stupid exams kept me away from taking this tag.. its not yet over, but just one more to go.. its also the easiest one.. n the most boring L

So here goes.. 100 truths abt me…

1. Last drink: Black Coffee

2. Last phone call : a friend

3. Last text message: a friend again...

4. Last song you listened to: My Name is... by Eminem

5. Last time you cried: Dont remember.. was long back.. im a tough guy now ;)

Have you ever?...

6. Dated someone twice: :(

7. Been cheated on?: Nope..

8. Kissed someone & regretted it?: No…

9. Lost someone special?: Dont think so..

10. Been depressed?: Yeah... Im always waiting for a reason to get depressed..

11. Been drunk and threw up?: ahem.. ahem..

Four Favourite Colors...

12. Black

13. Red

14. Blue

15. White

Firsts....

16. Made new friends: Yeah!!

17. Fallen out of love: im trying to fall in…

18. Laughed until you cried: Lots of times.. with the kinda fnrz ive got, thats all u do...

19. Met someone who changed you: Actually not met.. but Stephan Hawking has changed me thru his work n books in a way i would never have imagined.

20. Found out who your true friends were: Oh Yeah...

21. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeah...

Have You...

22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No

23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: In my Orkut frnz list.. most of em.. but in blogger, just 4!

24. How many kids do you want to have: havnt thought abt it yet.. but i think just one would be enough..

25. Do you have any pets: No

26. Do you want to change your name: Ive got the best name in this world, why would i want to change it!

27. What did you do for your last birthday: Spent with my frnz :)

28.What time did you wake up today: 2 o clock! no 2 in the morning... yeah.. i knw... im strange :P.. but normally around 5 :)

29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Zzzz....

30. Name something you CANNOT wait for: To get out of college..

31. Last time you saw your father: 3-4 weeks ago

32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: cant think of anything..

33. Most visited web page: of course... gmail. i hate to say it but google kinda owns me. :(

What's Your...

34. Name: I'm Bose, Amal Bose ( 007 tune in the background )

35. Nicknames: U dont want to know :P

36. Zodiac sign: Scorpio

37. Male or female or transgender: MALE

38. Elementary: S N Public School

39. School: S N Public School

40. College: College of Engineering, Trivandrum

41. Hair color: Black

42. Long or short: Short

43. Height: 170 cm

44. Do you have a crush on someone?: yeah...

45. Ever been in love?: No

46. Piercings?:No

47. Tattoos?: No.

48. Righty or lefty: Righty

49. First surgery: Never had one..

50. First piercing: Nopes.

51. First best friend: Jaidev... im lucky that it still is..

52. First sport you loved: Cricket..

53. First pet: My brother ;)

54. First vacation: Dont remember... Hyderabad i guess

55. First concert: Waiting for Linkin Park to come to India

56. First crush: a kindergarten friend

Right Now...

57. Eating: Nothing

58. Drinking: Nothing

59. I'm about to: go n watch Angels n Demons.. heard its not as good as the book, but i wont miss Tom Hanks for anything :)

60. Listening to: Linkin Park.. (repeated ques???)

61. Waiting for: Nothing

Your Future...

62. Want kids?: yeah

63. Want to get married?: who wont.. but not anytime soon... need to enjoy my freedom

64. Careers in mind?: something i would love to do.. with lots of people around me.. preferably in software field.. the prob is im an Electrical Engineering stdnt.. but one thing is for sure... i dont want n electrical related job. went to a PowerStation a few weeks ago... its the most boring job anyone can ever get..

Which is better with the opposite sex...??

65. Lips or eyes: Both….

66. Hugs or kisses: Hugs in public…….. Kisses in private ;) ( stole Deepika's answer :P )

67. Shorter or taller: Taller

68. Older or Younger: younger...

69. Romantic or spontaneous: Both…..

70. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both…..

71. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive…..

72. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship…

73. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker ;)

Have you ever...??

73. Kissed a stranger: nope..

74. Lost glasses/contacts: glasses..

75. Sex on first Date: nope..

76. Broken someone's heart: yeah.. :(

77. Had your own heart broken: yeah

78. Been arrested: No

79. Turned someone down: nope..

80. Cried when someone died: Havnt cried, but ive felt really bad..

81. Liked a friend that is a girl?: Yeah..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

82. Yourself: Yeah

83. Miracles: Big No..

84. God: Another really big NO

85. Love at first sight: No..no.. i think for u to fall in love with someone, u need to know each other really well..

86. Heaven: Again no..

87. Santa Claus: :( No..

88. Kiss on the first date?: yeah.. y not?

89. Angels: No.

90. Devils: No..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

91. Is there one person you want to be with right now?: Yeah..

92. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?: No..

93. Wanted to kill someone ever?: Oh Yeah.. many times..

94. Among you blog mates, whom would you like to kiss?: No one

95. Committed a blunder and regretted later?: Ive been committing blunders ever since ive passed Xth std

96. Wanted to steal your friend's boyfriend / girlfriend?: No..

ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR...

97. White: Shirt

98. Black: Pants..

99. Red: T Shirt..

100. Pink: pink.. pink.. No... no pink

Phew…

That's it abt me..

Im tagging Satyu, Hemanth, Nithin, Swati and Anupama

Quest for my goal

Sorrow hovered over me a like the dark cloud
Blocking the sun’s rays from reaching me
My hopeful peeks into my future were blinded
By the piercing glare of my impossible goal
I tried to block the light with my hands
And that was when I found out I was invisible,
and why my screams reached deaf years
I tried to move forward to my goal
But found myself tied to my putrid past
by the laughter around me:
You are too insignificant.
You won’t make it. What a joke!
Holding back tears, I fell on my knees.
They had finally opened the oak door that
I had tried all my life to keep locked
And all my nightmares came onto me,
to further lower me into my grave.
I stood there with a drooping face
waiting for defeat to capture me.
Like dew refreshing a dying flower
I felt a cool mist surround and rejuvenate me
The love of those who cared for me,

those I have abandoned for my quest for the stars.
I let the tears from my crimson eyes
wash away the sin I had committed.
Closing myself onto me
my dream on my mind,
I walked towards my goal.

Its Priya Joyce's birthday on 27th and i wish her a really wonderful birthday..

Cursed Word

Well guys, this is my first attempt in 55 fiction.


Her words were deep cuts to his heart. The perennial smile on his face faded away.
"Is there someone else?" he asked.
"Leave me alone, just go"
With a heavy heart and welled up eye he slowly turned and left.
Holding back tears she opened the wrinkled paper and reread the cursed word - Leukemia

Craziest Dreams...

Every time I dream at night, I wake up feeling just as excited and thrilled as watching a suspense thriller Hollywood movie. Almost all of my dreams have all the ingredients for a block buster thriller movie – suspense, action, fear, adventure. :)

The interesting thing is that I’m having these dreams long before I knew there was a world outside the four walls of my house. I think my oldest dreams are the most exciting and enigmatic ones.

Ill just tell you about one such dream. I remember having this same dream for more than two or three times. In it, there is a man standing in a deserted area, it kinda looks like set with white background and there is a long string attached between two short poles (but it’s a bit more complicated than a simple pole). He then slowly walks forward till he reaches the string. Then I would see him getting closer and closer to the string that too in slow motion until the separation reaches microscopic level. He then finally touches the string, and then something happens that I really don’t understand. A small globe will be formed and it will get bigger and bigger sucking in everything around it. This getting bigger part is the most frightening one, I don’t know why I was frightened by this but I could fell the globe consume the entire world around and then it explodes in a flash.

As I grew up and was in primary school, I had normal scary dreams... the most common being dogs chasing me ;) . Whenever they are in hot pursuit on me, I would either feel like the being immobile or in slow motion or the door of my house which was supposed to be the safe house would move away from me for apparently no reason at all. But I never got caught :D

Later years fell victim to the falling dreams.

On one such dream, I imagine the earth to be made of shells, hollow inside with more shell like earth inside it. Kinda like onion with separation between the peels. And there would be holes or large gaps on each of these layers through which people would fall from one layer to the other. In this dream, there would be millions of others around, either falling with me, or holding on to the edges of the gaps. The scene is similar to a hell like one with a reddish orange sky n all.

There is another falling dream; it’s not scary, but a nice one. It is similar to bungee jumping but without ropes. In it I would be falling, no I would jump intentionally from a tall building or once from even a coconut tree ;) . And I really enjoyed the weightless feeling while plummeting towards the ground. It also does hurt while reaching the ground.

You think I’m crazy? Wait for more ;)

Once I dreamt of an exact movie scene, with me costarring with none other than Arnold Schwarzenegger and Batman :D .How cool is that? I and my buddies ;) were fighting bad guys in a big hospital (I guess the inspiration was from Die Hard, just the change of scene).The incident is at night (may be because of Batman’s involvement) and I remember saving Arnold from a potentially fatal fight. :)

I think this is the first time I have identified someone else in my dream. Of course none of the characters had recognizable faces, but I just knew who they were. Another thing is that almost all my dreams are in Black and White but I just feel the colors :)

I have had lots of such dreams which I don’t remember now. But I remember one climax in which I was terrified to death, but suddenly the scene changed and I saw my mother sleeping beside me (that was inside the dream) and I hugged her and went on to have a nice deep sleep after that. :)

Well no guys dream story is full without dreams of girls ;)

In almost all of my dreams about girls, I was just talking to them. Just talking, only the scene changes, if it was the train one time, it would be in the college the next time or somewhere else.

Yeah, and one time I dreamt of going to the moon along with Tom Hanks and Saurav Ganguly :) I’ve also had dreams about my school, after I passed out of it, but all the time, the scene was in and around the toilet. I really don’t know why ;)

I guess thats all I can remember, now its your turn to share your CRAZIEST dreams :)

I dedicate this post to Deepika Gupta who has been asking for a happy post from me for a while now... ;)

My Reflection

Their applause and encouragement were drugs to my blood. I was more active, happy and felt like i could do anything with them around me. Everyone around me encouraged me to sail along. Everything was in my favour, the pleasant sun, the cool breeze sailing past us, the beautiful butterflies feeding on the dazzling flowers, the chirrups of the small birds flying around - I was in heaven. I could see happiness in every eye that met mine.

But in that ecstatic state, i slipped. I was carried away too far by the encore and one mistake was all it took. There was dead silence all around.
I was lost.

With a bleeding heart, I looked around for a caring soul, for a loving heart, for a smiling lips only to stare at the emptyness around me. Tears ran down my eyes washing away any trace of euphoria that had once played along. Slowly the tears feel onto the river below me blurring my own reflection staring back at me in silence.
My only friend.

The Brightness of Truth

I peeked out into the wonderful world outside
From within my parents shell around me
And waited eagerly for the fine day
I would be granded wings on my own.

With a heart spilling with emotions
I stepped out of the broken shell.
Crushing its pieces under by feet,
I walked out into the brightness.

In the light that has been shielded by my shell,
I saw the world as it really was.
No longer under a filter, my heart slowly learned
The stinking truth of the real world.

Where lies roamed free without a reason,
A hidden sneer always tailed a plastic smile,
Where some fasted for a better posture,
While other to hide their hunger.

Where people killed like dogs in the streets,
While others learned to blind themselves
And to stare at their own paths
Where the only mantra was "I, Me and Mine".

I tried to shield myself and ignore it
But the blanket around me slowly faded away.
I found myself stink with the world around me.
I had finally become a part of the chaos.

Around me I heard sound of cracking shells
Eager faces glancing out of their breaking shells
To stare into the unknown world,
And to face the brightness of truth.

You are a stranger, you can't be nice

Aleena moved away from the window side seat and took out a book from deep inside her bag, as the train started moving from the station. She has had the book with her for a while now, her tough schedule kept her away from it for most of the time. After making a mental note to finish it before getting home, she sank into the book.
She barely noticed the middle aged man limping past her and throwing himself onto the single window side seat in very next compartment - facing her. It was a while after she glanced up and saw this man. He had a large forehead blemished by the scar across his left eye brow, and his shirt though appeared clean was all wet from sweat. He appeared uneasy and was looking out into the nearly fields through his deep sunken eyes.

When did he get here? I was sure no one was there when the train left.

She glanced around, there werent many passengers around, and her attention again feel on this man who was looking directly at her now. His cold stare made a chill run down her spine. She was never comfortable with strangers, but this was far worse. She instinctively turned away.

God! He is staring at me... Should i go and sit with someone else?

She tried to concentrate on the book, but she couldnt take her mind away from those staring eyes.

Who is he and what does he want? May be i should talk to the TT about this...

She had heard about strange things happening in trains, trains with less passengers, trains like this.. drug addicts, child molesters, gangmen... Her mind found new and new possibilities and each made her heart sunk even lower.

The train came to a halt in a small station, and the man glanced out of the window as though searching for someone. Minutes passed by and he was still leaning out of his seat and looking, sweating even more and looking worried.
Just then a small girl probably 10 years, boarded the train. Without even saying anything to whoever who had brought her, she turned and looked around. The little girl saw the man sitting on the window side seat waving at her. With an innocent smile on her face she moved towards him.
Aleena didnt know why, but caught the little girl by her hand and turned her around.
" What are you doing here? and where are your parents?"
With the smile still on her lips, she turned to the man and said "... there." and ran to him.

She jumped onto him giving him a big hug.

"How is your leg,Daddy? and what did doctor uncle say?" she asked patting his right leg.

"Daddy is OK, sweet heart.. I can... I can walk." he said.

Looking at his leg she said "I love you Daddy" planting a gentle kiss on his cheeks.

She started talking about different things that happened to her during the day, the new friends she made, how she hated the gardener and so on. He smiled at her and some times laughed out loud just like the small child on his lap.

On the next station he stood up and started limping out.

"You can hold onto me Daddy, ill walk you out."

"Thats OK sweetheart, I can walk" he replied.
He saw Aleena watching the both of them, and smiled at her like a proud father.
She tried to force a smile on her face, but nothing came out.