July 18, 2009

The Kiss - 55 Fiction

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The smile from the sparkling eyes filled his heart with warmth and he felt helpless at the yearning desire to be together forever. The longing amativeness to make this sensuous soul his own intensified every second. Unable to hold back anymore, looking deep into those craving eyes, he leaned forward and kissed him.


First. I’m not gay.
Now bring back the eyebrows and continue reading.

I’m sure that all of you guys would agree that love (straight one...) is uncontrollable...
The urge to love and to be loved by another is unexplainable complicated and deep too. You would long for the attention of this person and would do anything to be with him/her forever. These feelings cannot always be shut down or ignored. These are something that is built into our system, technically the work of hormones.
So what if, somehow this same uncontrollable attraction is towards a person of the same gender? What can we do? Can we in any way blame them? I don't think so...


I came to know about homosexuals mainly through foreign films, and was familiarized through F.R.I.E.N.D.S and believe me - never in any part of my life had i felt anything different in them. They are just as same as all of us.
Ive seen Milk and i would be lying if i say it was comfortable watching them make love. Its not the kind of film that would change your feelings towards them. But there is one, that definitely would: Heavenly Creatures by Peter Jackson staring Kate Winslet and Melanie Lynskey. It was based on a true story. I was deeply touched by their love toward each other and hope of being together though the others considered it to be a disease.I never felt it as anything different or weird, it was just pure love for one another. The ending was a bit tragic... after all it was based on a true story.
Im really happy that we have a law supporting it, but what we really need is the change in general attitude towards them and to stop considering them as any different from the rest.

PJ had done a post on this topic, check it out too.

98 comments:

Shravan | ശ്രവണ്‍ said...

ah amal.. thats a great way to express IT.. kudos :) well done mate.. well done.

Anonymous said...

Try 'Brokeback Mountain' as well. Another true story of two men who fall in love and years pass, they get married yet their love still remains strong. A truly poignant story, that talks about Love, and how it can come anywhere.

Ashwathy said...

somehow the ending was expected..
well-written! :-)

i like ur thot process. wish more ppl supported that thot tho...!

Chiranjib said...

So beautifully expressed...

Priya Joyce said...

Ahhh....tat was a waay to sensual...
;)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

hmm hey lemme ask ye...sumday u grow up...(oops...i meant turn old!!!) n u get a kid...just tell me wat ull feel wen u find out dat yer daughter is lesb or yer son is gay...b frank k..? i mean no offence :) curiosity(hope de cat's not killed)..

Arv said...

Nice fiction...

Sowmi said...

Interesting Fiction Amal :)

slow processor said...

A nice post..
Have you seen the padmarajan movie (malayalam) "deshadanakkilikal karayarilla" and Deepa Mehta's 'Fire'?
I meant to say its not just a western trend.I feel its all about personal choice.But the social stigma is strong..
k.o.c.h.u's question will break our head for some time..

Saranya S said...

Well said. They are humans too. Individual likes and dislikes cannot be ruled out by others, especially in this kinda issue.

Brosreview said...

Nicely put! And, a good thought too!

Sneha said...

Nice one.:)

Amal Bose said...

@ Shravan
thanks buddy :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Anonymous
yeah.. i will.. thanks :)
take care :)

Amal Bose said...

@Ashwathy
i always try to make the ending unexpected... but somehow it never works out.. :(

thanks :)
take care n keep smiling :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Chiranjib
thanks mate :)
take care

Amal Bose said...

@ PJ
thanks da..
keep smiling :)

Amal Bose said...

@ k.ø.c.h.ü

being their father doesnt giv me any power at all to decide their sexual orientation... its upon them.
moreover, by that time, people would have a more open minded attitude towards them..so i dont need to worry abt it.

Amal Bose said...

@ arv
thanks mate
take care :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Sowmi
thanks for the comment
take care n keep smiling :)

Amal Bose said...

@ slow processor
ive seen the first movie.. but never knew it was abt lesbianism.. saw it long ago.. may be thats y..


yeah.. the question is very relevant, but im hopeful that things are gonna change..
take care :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Saranya
you r right... but still people does that.. thats the sad part :(

thanks for the feedback
take care :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Brosreview
thanks :)
keep smiling :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Sneha
thanks for the comment
take care :)

anupama said...

dear amal,
it's really different from ur earlier posts.the feelings may be frank,and happens at times in every one's life!
but,this this is a passing phase!and i'm sure next time the desire will be for the rosy cheeks!:D
something more to express,but note here,may in chat box..............
happy blogging n a cool sunday!
sasneham,
anu

A S said...

hii Amal

nice post...short and crisp
its nice to know that ur views are really mature, that is uncommon esp on this topic.. I feel sexuality is a personal orientation, no one has any right to interfere somebody's personal matters like his/her sexual orientation ...

Amal Bose said...

@ anu
thanks for the feedback
have a nice day :)
tc

Amal Bose said...

@ aditi
thanks :)
yeah.. no one has any right to interfere in such matters..

take care :)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@amals previous response

omg amal..dat was one biig response...so u dont really care about yer kids turning gay/lesb...hmmm let's c...niway de optimism u showed is funny...!!!

BY THAT TIME...how far do u think kerala will get 'open'...??? ha?? dude..respnd...dis debate's gettin hottttt...

Amal Bose said...

@ nithin

not that i wont care, its just that i dont want to interfere in their freedom. it their life and how can i make a decision?.. they will be matured enough by the time they come up with this decision

n abt kerala... its difficult, but i was not talking abt kerala alone..
we knw there are homosexuals here, n my there are people who have the same attitude as i have, and i think this percentage will continue to grow over time.. besides, why shd we care..
if im gay, i wont mind wat others say abt me.. if there is any discrimination in this sense, i can go to court, right? so why fear?
n i dont think most wont mind.. they hav their own matters to deal with..

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@amalz prev response

well dear...i'm not speakin against homosexuality...just dat im least bothered...itz 'human' u c...de makerz of de constitution included all "voluntary sexual intercourses against the order of nature wid any man, woman or animal" under UNNATURAL SEXUAL OFFENCES sec377 I.P.C.

aS 'slow processor' QUoted kerala ain't new 2 de concept. wid 58 additional females for every 1000 males...kerala do exposed lesbianism thru media years back...

n de De current amendments only favour intercourse wid concent...

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@amalz prev response

wat i hate is de unwanted publicity dat de topic is gettin...der r a billion tiny yet vital day 2 day amendments dat passes our notice...

Yeah my point is leave de homosexualz alone...de law makers did wat they do ...ensure 'no descremination''' The topic ends der...de media celebrated it for few days...but lez entertain it no more...let dem lead der lifez...de social stigma may drive off slowly..perhaps days wil cum wen people shout yeah im homosexual!!!

but y all hue n cry...wid all 'jai jai' n 'i support them slogans'...???

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@amalz previous response

now turnin 2 de lighter side...beastiality, incest, sodomy, buccal-coitus, exist de same way homosexuality exists..all r as per definition (ref-Forensic Medicine, by Reddy) Behavioral Abnormalities...

Imagine laws being passed protecting them from descrimination...will de same media PLAY DRUMS??? will similiar posts fill de blogosphere...

I think...just think k...'bestiality' will remain as uncensored comedy in movz like american pie or euro trip, n de rest will b part of de adult-xxx movies...

Yet people luv 2 say 'I SUPPORT HOMOSEXUALITY'...HOLLYwood has been showing homos 4 ages...dey nevr created fuzz...no controversies...even chartbusters like V 4 vendetta or Watchmen showz lesb kisses...no probs...

Deepa mehta directs a bold movie...ho...comes out de shourya of Indians...a constitutional amendment cums up...hoo here Indians r again sayin JAI...!!! attitudez must change...imbibe de nice messages n spread them...

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

my VERDICT:

Homosexuality is an Abnormal Behavior (medical texts say)...better leave them 2 der own...
No discriminations b lashed out.
Counsel them...

Personally I donno how ill tolerate if i find out my kith n kin r suffering wid such emotions..i might not punish them (hooo cant go 2 jail) but ill do advice them...

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

Never PROMOTE it at least...Homosexual relations r never safe...

The very first case of AIDS in dis very world was reported among homos in USA...none will deny dat...

De kindo physical relations dat homos can get into r dangerous...eg. Anal sex among gays boost risk of HIV transmission owing 2 de increased chance of blood contact...dono about de health risks among lesbians...

MOREOVER HOW WILL DE WORLD SURVIVE YAAR?? HOWL POPULATIONs REPLENISH?? :)

sO stop givin unwanted publicity 2 de topic...let us build a strong future...

Der was just one adam n eve...fortunately they acted Naturally..!!!

Gymnast said...

Amal , you are getting better. Trust me ..you really are! I can see that honesty in whatever you write , you certainly seem to be a very genuine person.

As for homosexuals , yes, it is against nature ,but it is also a persnal choice.I have friends who are gay and i would be outraged if they were called a threat to the world.

I am all for equal right for everybody , whatever be the sexual orientation.

Priya Joyce said...

heyy amal u've said it all...as a responsible modern citizen..am left with just nodes to the text.

ps:).I mean yesterday i cud just read the 55f and rest all was in the font webdings well now it's fine..So it's juss now tat I raed it :)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@gymnast

nice feedback m8...i'll say cheers..!!! n ahem ahem i didnt mean 'homoz' r threat 2 de world k....!!! der r risks just dat...

:)

Amal Bose said...

@ nithin

wat i hate is de unwanted publicity dat de topic is gettin

i think it needs publicity.. most people are ignorant of the actual facts n they shd be made aware that these things are legally allowed and such persons are not to be discriminated in this basis.

beastiality, incest, sodomy, buccal-coitus, exist de same way homosexuality exists
i dont understand why u compared such things with homosexuality.. it certainly is NOT a disorder.
heres a quote frm Wiki
On December 15, 1973, the American Psychiatric Association, removed homosexuality from its official list of mental disorders
n i dont think a law would ever be passed to declare incest as legal, n regarding the other stuff,frm wat i know,i think its ok if both are willing.
Regarding Deepa Mehta, is it the only such incident?? most Indians view things from a very narrow point of view.. they always stand over a large pile of beliefs n baseless customs.. (not everything.. )and refuse to accept new things.. though we know that homosexuality is not at all new to Indian culture..

Homosexual relations r never safe
its not entirely true..there are certain rules..
coz in FRIENDS, once Susan tells that you have to have complete a certain course in same-gender sex before you are allowed to do it.
And regarding AIDS, if a person is infected the other one has the equal chance of getting it irrespective of whether its straight or homo sex

MOREOVER HOW WILL DE WORLD SURVIVE YAAR?? HOWL POPULATIONs REPLENISH?? :)
the law doesnt asks everyone to be homosexuals.. so if someone has to be gay, he can... he has to right to chose his sexuality.. its just that.
n i dont think every one was waiting for this rule to make out with the same gender.

swati said...

a really brave attempt amal..we are no one to judge or perceive othrz depending on thr sexual orientation.. an individual is completely free to choose watever he feels like..
n a nice fiction too..
good day!!
Take care :)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@amalz response:

o pal...quoting from wiki is adjustable...but macha i donno y even de thought of quoting from a sop like FRIENDS entered yer mind..o lord...hey de comments i made have 'referenses'...but not 2 tv-serials.

Now wikipedia is never an authentic source...n About de clause regarding ABNORMAL BEHAVIOUR...I was quoting from a textbook recommended n approved by de Indian Medical Association. n SECTION377 only appears in de Constitution of India..America is different dude. Statements should only come from Standard Approved textbooks that r authentic. De rules set by de IMA will very well differ from Those by other Medical assoc...so understand this...as far as i've read from de texts prescribed 2 us...It is an abnormal behaviour. Perhaps de text may get edited someday after approval...!! :)

N about unwanted publicity what awareness is being spread yaar..? except 4 de fact dat Discrimination can be prevented(legally)...what else is de use...do u know...people r even raising der voices against de explicit condom promotion ads in de tv (de 'marakkalle' stuff in malayalam, n de parrot). Know y? it spread de wrong message

DE only point i agree is de Narrow mindedness of Indians..!!!dat cant b repaired..!!

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@amal cont.

regarding de safety...he he...understand this. It's medical.I didnt wanna fill dis space wid de explanation. well dear since uve asked here it is.

Male2male sex is mostly Anal...n know what, de risk of HIV transmission during Anal sex is far far more than sex by other route. thaz coz of de risk of injuries n blood transmission is riskier...(trust me pal...u might not get it from wiki..ill tell u de literatures 2 refer if ye need)

:) funny...niway...well...risk of transmission is equal in straight ones n homos as u say. but remember dear...normal couple have alternatives...but homos(male2male) dont...

n now dont wiki n quote something like homo males dont hav anal sex...unfortunately i might not have proofs 4 dat...

Amal Bose said...

@ Gymnast
im flattered :D

n thanks for feedback :)

Amal Bose said...

@ PJ
thats coz of a prob with the font.. every browser doesnt hav the font i used at first..but ive changed it.. :)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

n dont misinterpret dat...coz i dont have authentic references regarding the psychology of homosexuals or how dey derive pleasure.

n u said "the law doesnt asks everyone to be homosexuals.. so if someone has to be gay, he can... he has to right to chose his sexuality.. its just that.
n i dont think every one was waiting for this rule to make out with the same gender. "

i do agree wid...no one was waiting 4 a law 2 b homo...so watz de point 2 bluff anout wen a law is now der...itz 4 dem...as one human being ill do what i can 2 'save them from descrimination'...but as id mentioned ill councel them n try correcting them. YEAH EVRYONE HAS HIS RIGHTS...!!! No one ever is gonna shoot a person coz hez a homo...after all evryone's a human...

Amal Bose said...

@ nithin
not just Wiki..
i read abt a scientist opinion on this topic.. infact his work.. in it, it was clearly menioned that it was not a disorder.. it was infact talking abt transsexuals..
n regarding safety, im sure that such a course has to be passed atleast in the US.
n i KNOW that the only way gay sex can only be through anal means.. n i agree that its well.. dangerous.. but the only thing is one of them has to be infected..

but i dont knw, doesnt AIDS spread thru normal-way sex?

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@amal cont...

n ill repeat..im n will be justified wen i "compared such things with homosexuality". jost coz i hav references from literature. i wasnt jotting down my own conclusions.

n hEy buddy..this was de healthiest debate dat ive had till date...!!! luvd it absolutely...!!!

Amal Bose said...

@ nithin
y they shd they need counseling?? u r a medical student, n u shd know that it is NOT a disorder.. such was the beliefs by doctors 20 years ago..

Amal Bose said...

@ swati
thanks for the comment dear..
take care :)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

o cmon..i was windin this up buddy..u r ol? well Im damn sure u r aware that Transexual is far far different from homosexual...if u dono dat go wiki 4 it...o lord..

I repeat again...(no offences meant 2 any homos if dey cum 2 read this)...homosexuality is n IS an abnormality as per Indian Literature.

n Amal u r speakin like kids...did I say aids don't spread through normal sex? o..de fact is safe sex can b made even wid an infected person..do u know dat? ALL I SAID WAS DE RISK IS FAR FAR HIGHER...

o o...sorry if i sound bad...ive already typed in quadruple times...im not shouting against de homosexuality..was just quoting few real stuffs from literature...

damsel in distress said...

oo..heated discussion going on..

first things first..good work,nice choice of words..beautiful.you are getting better,def.

and now on the topic..urm..well, wonder why i never was bothered about this at all..i admit,i don't know much about the topic, wonder how relevant my opinion will be..

i have heard that homosexuality is a disorder,unnatural behaviour etc etc...i have to admit, i think it is weird. but i do think it is stupid to hold someone's sexual orientation against them..thats a part of their character..no need at all to discriminate them or anything..thats pointless..

now, unnatural as it seems, you can't deny it is happening..there are such people, and they dont have any choice too..

i think the main purpose of legalising it and promoting it is a lil bit different from the arguments above..you see, just imagine a straight person getting married to a gay one,unknowingly..the society ofcourse has pushed the gay one into hiding that feeling..he/she gets into the marriage with a totally unassuming person who has no clue whatsoever. now THAT is scary..

bringing it into the open, you avoid such a situation. let gays be..dont scare them into hiding what they feel..no one can deny it is not something they can control,right?

homosexuality is not a new phenomenon..and i dont think that is any threat to the human race too..duh uh!

normal people can be disgusting too sometimes..

as diplomatic as i might seem,i find it weird, but in no way bothered. seriously, they are normal otherwise i guess.but i do really wish that my daughter/son dont turn out such way, selfish as it may sound..

and amal, don't ever quote from sitcoms okay!!!

Amal Bose said...

@ nithin
ya.. i know. i just mentioned it.. got to read abt it while i was looking for homosexual stuff

k.. then as per Indian literature, its a disorder.. hmm.. so does he get suddenly cured when he gets to the US?.. just kidding.. ;)

i didnt knw it before.. thats y.. thanks..

no..no. you didnt sound bad at all..
thanks a lot for the comments :)
hav a wonderful week..

Destiny's child... said...

You are so correct...I agree with you hands down! They are as human as every one is...I firmly believe that 'to each his own'....we are not moral cops....Keep up the good work! :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Roshny
well, i dont think removing the social stigma by labeling them as diseased can do any good.

the fact u mentioned abt marriages is true... i admit, but this can be fully removed by admiting them as such and not as an ill person..
no one wants to be labeled ill.. it will have the same effect as before.

haha... ill try to give more authentic sources from now on.. :)

thanks for the lengthy comment ;)
take care :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Destiny's child
you r right..
thanks for the comment :)

NEHA said...

Exactly.... no matter law changes or not, its the general attitude of people regarding issues like these need to be changed.... No matter we preach that we are very cool with sexual orientation of people, i wonder how many of us would be comfortable seeing our siblings dating the same sex.....

Amal Bose said...

@ Neha
so true...
many would be willing to support this in public, but not many would wholeheartedly accept it..
this attitude is the one which shd change..

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@amal

:) yeyy...so de debate has a happy ending !!! :)
keep rockin m8..n hey...werz 'amal' in my blog??grrrrrrrrr

@damsel in distress

dat was a genuine reply :) yeah homoz r indeed not threat 2 human race !!!

Ki said...

Very well written.

Diya said...

I`ll try to catch the movie! Well the flash fiction was bit of unexpected, Bt I was not shocked.
Good, Keep it up.

Jis Thomas said...

U r a gr8 writer and a junior artist.nice to meet u.Thanks to remind me my golden days of PE lab....carry on writing....

Mad Blogger said...

Beautifully expressed a very valid notion!!!

mystish said...

great that you thought of writing about homosexuality.. expressed it in an open sort of way as well.. one thing though.. while i was at college i came across this term "othering".. i dnt knw whether you are familiar with the concept behind it.. it is pretty self-explicable actually.. you know how prejudice begins firstly and foremostly at the level of semantics.. how we use "they" when we talk about people or things we consider abnormal, that is to say different from us.. like the white man using pronouns to address the black man, like a heterosexual using it to mean homosexuals.. one could argue that it is only because of the barriers of language that confusions like these arise.. i would only like to say that let that be true.. let the difference begin and end at that level.. let the distancing not seep out from language and pervade more important areas like thought and ideology..
great work.. i enjoy your posts immensely.. :)

Amal Bose said...

@ nithin
yeah.. a happy ending :D
i came n commented :P :)

take care buddy :)

Amal Bose said...

@ ki
thanks for the comment :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Diya

the movie is awesome, do watch it ifve got time
n thanx for the comment :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Jis
thanks a lot for the kind words :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Mad Blogger
thanks a lot :)

Amal Bose said...

@ mystish
ya.. i know it. its something i dont like.. considering others as different and being indifferent towards them...

thanks for the comment :)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

>de HOMOPATHIC UPDATE< yeeeehaaaaaa

:) macha...herez it:
(apa=American Psychological Association)

the APA removed homosexuality from its Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Psychological Disorders in 1973. In 1975 it then released a public statement that homosexuality was not a mental disorder. In 1994, two decades later, the APA finally stated, "...homosexuality is neither a mental illness nor a moral depravity. It is the way a portion of the population expresses human love and sexuality"

It's this that de Highcourt sited.

The SC has asked the govt 2 speed up.

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

the Vitality of the current legal amendment is this:

Homosexual community is susceptible to HIV infection and this high risk group was mostly reluctant to reveal same sex behaviour because of fear of the law enforcement agencies.(Frontline, July 31, 2009)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

ho eda...u made me do a research in the topic he he..!!! :) thnx atleast 4 dat..gave plenty of work 2 my grey cells..."i've already published" de findings in a forum..

check out:
http://www.indiblogger.in/forum/topic.php?action=replied&p=15329&id=2138&action=updated&id=2138

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

oops de link is:
http://www.indiblogger.in/forum/topic.php?id=2138

Deepika Gupta said...

So true and obvious... but dunno why people still don't understand and accept... Nice post... well expressed...

Miss M said...

I quite liked the story!
I have been to your blog before because I remember being quite impressed by your drawing skills. :)

I am glad that there is one more person who understands and accepts homosexuality. You know people don't even have to accept it, but just tolerating will be more than enough really!

SAHITYIKA said...

beautifully expressed..
bt in our society..it is a difficult task to accept.. b/c frm child hood we get such kind of mentality abt such relations..
but ofcourse wich changing time everthing will change..

Chriz said...

trans is not a defect.. it is an emotional mix up in the mind.. so deep a topic.. beautifully put

Amal Bose said...

@ Deepika
thanks for the comment :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Miss M
thanks for the comment
im glad that u liked it :)

Amal Bose said...

@ SAHITYIKA
ya..thats a big problem..
lets hope it gets sorted out in future :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Chriz
thanks mate :)

Fiducia said...

I totally agree with you! I know that there has been a lot of hype revolving this fact, these days..

But I guess we all forget the truth that they too are humans created, just like us and they too have the right to express their needs to the world!

Watching 'Milk' was least comfortable for me too.. but I liked the voice that was addressed in the movie..

The same goes for 'Heavenly creatures' too which when I try watching, my hubby acts cranky as he is totally against such characters around us..

I guess we have to change our attitudes that we generally have for such beings and begin considering them as normal lives..

Let's hope for the best for these people and their suppressed feelings..:)

Nice post! Keep writing....:)

scorpiogenius said...

Appreciate the post!

Im more intrigued by the nature of some of the comments here condemning Homosexuality as a disease. Why dont people better get the facts chacked out before putiing the fingers to the keypads.

google for ICD 10, the International classification of diseases which lists all the physical and psychological deviations from Normal. Check if you can find Homosexuality there, and then babble.

It will take our society a few more years to accept the fact that this is no sickness. Until then, its anyones guess...

joiedevivre said...

a message in it i see..

Amal Bose said...

@ Fiducia
ya, all we hav to do is treat them like humans n everything will be fine..
thanks for the comment :)

Amal Bose said...

@ scorpiogenius
thanks for dropping by.. :)

Amal Bose said...

@ joiedevivre
thanks :)

Americanising Desi said...

beautiful Amal :)

truly well done :D

Bindhu Unny said...

Liked the 55-words!
My understanding is being homosexual is beyond one's control. So let them live! I don't think a few homosexuals in the society will negatively affect it. :-)

Ria said...

very well written!! :)

The15YearOldNaive said...

I am new to your blog
and im in love with it!

I love the quote in the picture.

Rane (The Orchid with All Shades Pink) said...

that was an amazing way of putting it..and I agree with each word written above..

way to go Amal.

Amal Bose said...

@ AD
thanks for the comment :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Bindhu Unny
thanks :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Ria
thanks Ria.. :)

Amal Bose said...

@ The15YearOldNaive
welcome to my blog.. n thanks for d comment :)
do drop in often :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Rane
thanks a lot :)

lostmermaid said...

reminded me of a short fiction i wrote on similar lines on my old blog... but i agree .. love is uncontrollable !