October 13, 2009

The Enemy Within



"I have been wearing a mask for so long that it had been unremovably bonded to my soul. Now it cant be removed without leaving a deep and painful scar behind."

May be he is not as good as he believes.
May be the kind of emotions he shows are a means to deceive himself more than others - to gain trust in the tiny little voice inside him.
May be he had lost control and the strings have now become more real and visible.

He always felt that there was someone inside him -
someone who never trusts him, his intuitions, finds out sinful intentions for his friends actions making him turn a cynic eye on them. It forced him to see everything through a pessimistic view.It taught him to trust no one, not even himself.

At times, it takes full control over him, tears him apart and eats him raw

"But Im sure that one day i shall destroy you and I will enjoy see you wither away." He whispered with a smile on his ghastly face.

PS. I actually have no idea which category this writeup comes under. It not a story, Its not about me, Its just some random thoughts expressed in a crude way...
Ill come up with something worth reading in the next post..

33 comments:

Priya Joyce said...

I think this was very much worth reading...
u've beautifully expressed..the lack of confidence in oneself...

:):)

Hemanth Potluri said...

sometimes to achieve something we need the enemy to tease us :)..but sometimes we have to get it out of us for our own good....

u have written it good...and u have beautifully expressed ur feeling towards ur enemy inside killin ur confidence...


u take care bro..

urs..hemu..

AS said...

hii Amal :)

its really a thing worth reading :)
all of us wear masks because we dont trust each other, this goes one step ahead and we stop trusting ourselves too.... keep writing :)

Meow said...

Oflate I've been reading in many blogs, posts about wearing mask, being fake and I myself have come up with such a topic... We all are in same thinking mode huh?

Well put and expressed in a manner which shows how crude it is!!! Loved It :)

ScarletTd1ar1es said...

the difference between artificial and real. there is a real you and there s a unreal you who you live with.
finally one of them gives way. and generally its the former.

Devil Incarnate... said...

Its abt real a reel, beautiful written statement , well expressed and that pic made it more apt...

lakshmi said...

the inner self that always hinders the progress in human beings -

a beautiful one Aman

Anamika. said...

We all have it inside us. The hidden devil. It sort of wakes up during the times when we want things so bad! It gives us this feel that : Ha ha! You can't do it. I'll make sure you can't.

The fact that you've the will to break that voice apart and put yourself first is what counts.

Well written. :)

lena said...

The enemy within is the worst one we have to fight with during life. Fighting this voice must be the toughest and the most important task on the way to success as a human being in this life.
It is very well written.

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

Hmmm let me wear de mark of a critic :-) yeah as it goes , de post is indeed "crude" considering de commendable grammatical typing errors you've made i would suggest changes like "it has unremovably bonded" rather than "has been" . Similarly "i will enjoy SEEING u withered" instead of See u.
Da i'll start "CHOORALING N EERKILING" :)
another thing is de PS part, personally i don't think it's good 4 a author 2 express doubt about how worthy his write up. It's good 2 b open hearted though :) but i believe it's best not 2 make similiar add ons !u would better add like this "typed in a hurry! Mistakes guaranteed" etc !
Last but not de least :-) nice read. Keep experimenting :)

anupama said...

Dear Amal,
i wish to see clear n bright thoughts during DIWALI time.:)
develop a positive attitude,
compare with the less fortunate,
do the basic course of AOL,
Stand before the mirror,
And daily repeat,''I can do it''.
Be yourself n live your life,
EVERYTING WILL BE OK.
HAPPY DIWALI,FRIEND.........
sasneham,
anu

rahul s said...

Hey I m on ure space after a long time..Well I see now ure blog strted trafikking like earlier .There was a short gap in between na? Exams I guess.

muthu said...

that was pretty spontaneous....

an interesting read.. :)

Priya Vinay said...

its very abstract, but beautifully written :) :)

Destiny's child... said...

Not about you? Then, how come the words had an easy flow?
Abstract but interesting...:)
Btw, your blog looks awesome...The flash area looks great! :)

A S said...

hii Amal :)

happy diwali :D

Amal Bose said...

@ Priya
lack of confidence?... hmm.. may be a bit, but i think its something else..
n thanks for the feedback :)

Amal Bose said...

@hemu
thanks bro..
yeah, ur right.. sometimes a bit of teasing is necessary to keep u going.

Amal Bose said...

@ aditi
thanks a lot for dropping bye :)

Amal Bose said...

@sowmi
yeah.. guess this is a common state of mind ;)
thanks for the comment :)

Amal Bose said...

@ ScarletTd1ar1es
yeah.. finally one has to giv in..
rightly said :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Devil Incarnate...
thanks :)
take care n keep smiling

Amal Bose said...

@ lakshmi
thanks lakshmi :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Anamika.
u said it :)

thanks :)

Amal Bose said...

@ lena
thanks a lot lena.. :)

Amal Bose said...

@ nithin
sorry for the mistakes ;)
ill keep it in mind..
thanks a lot mate
take care :)

Amal Bose said...

@ anu
thanks a lot anu for ur cheering words.. :)
it always bring peace to my mind
take care :)

Amal Bose said...

@ rahul
thanks for dropping by mate.
yeah.. exams.. mood swings.. everything kept me away :(
bt im back now :)

Amal Bose said...

@ muthu
thanks muthu :)

Amal Bose said...

@ Priya Vinay
thanks a lot priya for the comment :)

Amal Bose said...

u really think there is an evil voice in me? lol :P
thanks ;)

Amal Bose said...

@ aditi
happy diwali to u too :)

Netha Hussain said...

Nice writeup......So much of meaning is contained in those few lines....All the best....Keep writing....