" A day would come wen u wud walk thru the large gate, on the lonely white path with dry leaves dancing in air, trees swaying in the breeze, away from the place where once love was made..smiles shared.. hearts broken.. tears spilled. Passing out, u wud feel the essence of unknown emotions.. then wen u step into ur lonely classroom with time to spare, only memories wud be there with u, u wud realize dat HEAVEN was HERE, just years before.
ENJOY COLLEGE LIFE! "
I get a lot of such campus messages daily. Passing out of college has always been a hard thing when u think about it. And the worst part is that horrible moment is getting close - only one more year in this wonderful college.
Almost everyone considers their college life as the best days of their life and im no different. But something tells me that its not entirely true. Its about my school life that im talking about – SNPS. It was the place I spend the best 12 years of my life. I cannot tell through words the connection I had with that place.. how homely I felt within those walls. Sadly that is something I don’t feel with my college right now. Of course im more free and have a lot of friends in my college than in my school. But its about the psychological attachment I had with the place.. the structure.. the soul of my school. I know each and every nook and corner of my school and when im inside, I feel just like being at home.. There never was any strangeness.
I used the “was” deliberately… lately it felt different.
Yes.. I went back to my school some time ago.. and felt different - heart breakingly different. For the first time in my life, I felt like a stranger in my own school. Before, I was a part of it, a part of a great institution.. now its not the same, every thing seems different. Strange eyes staring at me.
May be its because of the new students there, or the absence of some of my favourite teachers, or because of the changes it had underwent during my absence, or still may be because i was no longer a student there.
It no longer the place I would have gladly called home.
Now I don’t want to go back there. Not because I don’t like it.. but because I don’t want to experience the strange feeling about my school ever again.
It really hurts to think that im breaking away from the best years of my life. I don’t think I will ever come at least close to such a great place. Of course I love my college, but I just don’t feel the same. May be its because of the 12 to 3 year difference..
or may be I don’t want to feel the same way.
SNPS was like my second home and I really want it to remain the same forever.
I dont want to let go of it and I’ll never let go.